Recovery of the 48 hours of starvation process and protest

Friday, August 08, 2008
Current mood: strong

Man for these past 2 days I locked my self in a room and starved my self. Why you may ask was becasue I protested ignorence and selfishness. I was thinking Gandhi at the time. Even though Gandhi went hardcore with his protest I still respect the man for doing what he did. I realized that depending on the situation I could never live up to what that man did. Out of this protest came the silent treatment, meditation,thinking,focus,anger and frustration. I had to maintain balance foucus and remain calm. Becasue all of that engery I was building up form anger could have gotten me into so much trouble. Last night was horrrible becasue my silence was almost borken. I also started to get sick by getting light headed,breathing shortend, stomouch hurtting, and dry throat. I was thinking to myself omg what if I am going to die here.The pain was becomming so unbearible I almost gave up. But I stayed in it untill this morning I ate some fruit and had some water and omg I feel so much better.Today I have so much shit to deal with. My body still hurts a little but I am ok. Hopefull my protest ment somthing or something else will have to be done. The postive part of all or this that I was able to keep my mind in one place and have alot of thinking and clearing my head. I got my anger under controll and stayed foucused and Imagined my self in an unknown world.