On the roof in the midnight sky

Saturday, June 13, 2009
Current mood: confused

I always had this vision in my head that I would be standing on a roof on a tall building looking at the city in the midnight sky. My hair would flowing was the wind blows. Im wearing a black dress with the long black coat wearing red or black high heels and make up done in the most mysterious fashion. As I stand there on the edge of the roof in complete silence and amazed by the very view of the city that i see before my eyes I start hearing jazz music. The depressing romantic blues that involves a saxaphone. I sit down on the ledge if the roof and tears begin to flow. This unexplained sadness I have as the music contuines. I close my eyes and start to dream about what i could have and what my possiblities are. As I contiune to cry the mascerra my face runs down. I stand up and walk twords a poll and start swinging on it as a child would. The music stops. I stop. Theres this dark shadow trying to speak to me. It asked me why I was so sad and why was I on the roof at midnight. I say, "I don't know, I really don't know. But I do find certain things in life beautiful. When Im on the roof in the midnight sky the possibilities seem endless and I can dream on forever. But for some reason I always feel like somethings missing." "why is that?" it asked, "because Im going somewhere but I don't know where Im going. It's like walking down an infinate path sometimes new things appaer and the old continues to floow me down this path no matter how hard i try to walk away from it...I still dont know.." It said, "im sorry but I cant help you there. But what i can tell you is that you have a long ways to go but I believe in you....the more you question your self the more confused you may be but I do believe that some answers will come to you as long as you remain paitent...your something you know that? Don't worry Im here for you." I dont know who that person is. maybe an illusion? On the roof in the midnight sky there I stand asking many questions..the possiblities are endless and my heart continues to have a great love for the view of the city of the midnight sky.....