A possible discovery?

Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Current mood: worried

Well latley I have been noticing a serious of strange events. I feel like my minds going to exploed becasue as the days go by I feel like I'm getting worse. I have done all I can to keep my self under control. People are starting to notcie it and it is made clear that what I am dealing with is no secret. I am a pretty open person about my life and my experiences and I feel like I don't have too much to hide. However, there are somethings that I never reveal to people or only certain people know or sometimes just even part of whats going on. Yesterday and last night I went down memory lane and I started getting depressed and l lost foucs of what my current task was. But it wasnt the first time I did this. It's been happening a lot. I hate feeling like this. I really do. I also realized that If im a powerful force of nature I will deal with all kinds of environment changes. I do believe that there are a few people out there who exsist with power such as mine but there are a few select people who go through the same thing I'm going through right now. But I fear that it can tie into something that I really don't want it to be. If my hypothesis is correct about what I think I have. Then I'm going to have to make some desisions on how to deal with it. Becasue I don't want another substance to keep me under control. I want to fight this my self. One of the major goals in life is to die strong. I have to keep going! I have to figure this out! I have to be Strong! So bear with me please!