What do you think of me? (Friendship)

.by Rhiana Wilson on Thursday, December 2, 2010 at 8:24am.

As of a few minutes ago, I woke up from a dream. I dream was about an important part of my past. Quite a few of you have heard and experienced the story. No matter how much I am over the situation, something keeps reminding me of it even if I'm not thinking about it at all. Long story short I lost a friend that was very Important to me. No there was no physical death involved but I'm very disappointed in how our friendship ended. There's some situations that are left to be unfixed and there is a reason for doing so. I'm my dream, I ran into this same person in another world. All this person did was talk about my negative attributes to everyone. But failed to tell the rest of the world the other half of what we use to experience as a friendship. Time and time again I wondered if I should restore this burning bridge. Yet and still those very words that were being said to me still hurt. I always question myself and ask, “Is that what you truly think of me?.”



It doesn't matter what you think. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. The truth hurts. Not matter how many tears fall from my eyes or how angry I get. I would rather have you tell me the truth right away instead of being angry and threaten or decided to end our friendship. Any true friend would say how they feel and allow the other to respond to the situation in a mature matter. I say timing is important so much build up can take the situation way out of proportion. If your friendship is that Important to you, say how you feel. Allow the other person to give feed back and work on building instead of destroying it. Easier said then done Right? My grandma always use to tell me that, “true friends are like diamonds rare and hard to find and other are like fallen leaves”. There is so much truth in the quote it's self. When it comes to friendship, one of the things like always play a major role is miscommunication and misunderstanding. People always tell you that you are responsible for your actions and life’s decisions. There may be a lot of truth that however, sometimes you do things for so long without realizing it. For some reason it always seems to be one of the people you care about the most who points out that negative trait. It's never a persons job or right to change you for who you are. But it is there job to guide you in improving your life skills.



“Rhiana oh Rhiana! You are something else. You have have a mind of your own you are just out there!”My life, the life that I am living now is an important era to my time line. Each and everyday I face and encounter the new challenges of what life is suppose to be in the world of adults. They say I'm only 21 years old and my life is nothing compared to one that is twice my age and that I have it so easy. Unfortunate or not, it is not a contest of who has had the most difficult life or who is living the better like. I’m aware better or worse “living situations” will always come before me. They say as a 21 year old I am suppose to know what I want to be and expected to have that desire of living the “American dream”. I ask, “What is the American dream?”. They tell me not to play stupid. Yeah I know what it means.



Time and time again, I get nothing but criticism and doubt. It almost seems like a drug habit for some of you out there to underestimate me. There have been many things in my life time that I have proved to you wrong. I am not afraid to do it over and over again. I am not perfect I am a human being just like that few billion of exist on the rest of planet earth. I may take time no one said that I can challenge your accusation over night. Just like you, I have a line of people expecting me to fail or thinking that I am going to fail all together. “Nothing beats a failure but a try”. Yeah. Lets keep it that way. I may tell you from time to time that I am going to prove you wrong. But don't expect me to stand there with a sign saying “The World has got me wrong”. In time, not a word has to be said and once again they will be proven wrong. I love challenges it something that I always crave. No matter how many times I get knocked down in the boxing ring I keep fighting. I may have scratches and bruises all over. After a while they are nothing but a few extra pieces of my canvas. Rhi cannot be destroyed it just to beginning and besides. I find things more entertaining in life when it comes to a challenge. My friends all the world is a stage. Every day is a rehearsal and final performance. Life with it and stay strong. The Question is what do you think of me? TBC......


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